Hey all,
This is a special entry, which I would like to dedicate to my close friend, Alex. Sadly, he has passed away in terrible circumstances and I would like to express my sorrow through this blog. I know it's not the same, but I can't afford the plane to his hometown, so this is my only way to let everyone know of my feelings. And Alex, if you're out there, and you can see this, remember that you will forever have a special place in my heart.
When I found out, I couldn't believe it, I didn't want to. I started crying, hard. I spent the whole afternoon crying, and the rest of the day in depression. It still brings me to tears to think of you, and I weep for your brother too. I know how close ye were, and how much he misses you. We all do.
I remember that time, I made you promise if you or Carl were to die early, not that I wished it for either, that I would be welcome to the funeral. I never thought that it would happen so soon. Sadly, I can't be there as I can't get a visa, can't afford the tickets and I have exams in school, I'm sorry.
"I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand,
I wish that I could see you again,
I know that I can't.
I hope you can hear me,
'cause I remember it clearly..."
~ Avril Lavigne - Slipped Away.
I have been playing this song and singing it over and over, in memory of you. I've been drawing and painting, writing song lyrics and who knows what else, just for you, Alex. I miss you more than I thought possible, everything reminds me of you, of all the times we had.
Our last conversation, when my nose was bleeding from crying.. you were the one to cheer me up, you wanted to be there for me, but you couldn't physically be here. I feel like this the whole time now, I wish I could have been there for you all those times, I wish I could be there now to give you that final goodbye.
Alex, you are forever in my heart, forever in my mind and you will never be forgotten by anyone. I love you, and I will never forget how close we were, you were like a brother to me, even closer. Rest in peace, you will be in my prayers. <3
Love, xox
